My mom is giving a lesson to a new piano student upstairs. Man, this kid is pretty good. The music is making me all emotional. I miss playing the piano. I haven’t in such a long time. It’s so strange how you can forget emotions, forget passions, and then in one moment, something triggers it. Then, all of the sudden all the old memories come flooding back, almost as if no time had passed. It’s been awhile since I’ve really played, and I’ve kind of forgotten the feelings of excitement, deep excitement, from touching those keys.     It’s the same with other things besides piano. Like, awhile ago, when I didn’t really feel like I was connecting with any one. I didn’t really have best friends-I had forgotten how fun having relationships, talking, and laughing can be. Man, it feels so good to laugh again. To enjoy good relationships and discuss things.

Like the sun in Oregon. In the winter, I forget what it feels like. I forget the warmth and the smells of plants. The only things I see around me are gray.  There aren’t any smells. It’s almost as if the cold weather paralyzes everything. The flowers don’t give off any scent. People’s skin becomes dull and pale (ok, at least mine does). But then *hallelujah* then comes summer. Smells and feelings I hadn’t remembered come flooding back. And I think to myself, “Oh, yeah, I remember what it feels like to be this happy.” Haha. I think that’s what heaven is going to be like. All of the best emotions we’ve ever felt. Like, laughing so hard our stomach muscles cramp and we want to pee our pants. Or having a really cute guy/girl smile and show interest. Or eating watermelon at Little North Fork in a swimsuit. Just tastes of what is to come, my friends. Just tastes. So for all of you that feel like you’re life is paralyzed in a spiritual winter, take heart, my friends. It’s like Narnia…spring will come. Aww. Good stuff. Love you guys.